God's mission

In my quiet time today I was reading about Joseph. The story goes that when Joseph was bought by the Egyptian God blessed everything that the Egyptian official left in Joseph's charge. This way God gave Joseph favor but also exalted His own name. It got me thinking that in whatever God wants us to do God will speak. Joseph did nothing. His brothers sold him into slavery, he was bought by the Egyptian, and God blessed what was put in Joseph's charge. I keep thinking that I have to save people. I am so scared sometimes when I realize that I am supposed to witness for Christ. I think frankly I am shy and I don't want to be unliked or to make someone mad. I feel so ashamed and to a certain extent I should be. The gospel is offensive but it is worth telling and people need to hear it and I need to speak it. But I think I put too much pressure on myself. I think that it is my job to make people believe that God is great. That's not my job. God can show Himself to be great all I need to do is tell them and let God back Himself up. I think I don't trust Him to do so. God I repent of making too little of you. You called me to be a missionary and instead of relying on you to equip me to be a conductor for you to show your power through I have taken the task into my own hands and failed. I cannot save and I cannot convince. Please prepare the hearts of those I will meet in Russia. Please prepare my heart and my mouth to speak truth with love and boldness and wisdom. Let me speak when I should speak and be silent when I should be silent and most of all speak yourself to move the hearts of the lost toward belief in you. In Jesus name, Amen.